DropDeadSuicide
Sunday, October 26, 2008, 1:39 AM
Hey there.
Well..This week was'nt soo bad till last night.
Called her up after a long time.Before that,she text me that she had something to tell me.I was like curious to find out what it was she is soo eager to tell me.
Finnally called her up at around 12.30.We chatted till around 1.I asked her what was it she wanted to tell me.She took a deep breath and said that she did'nt want me to wait for her and she did'nt want me to like her anymore.I was shock.I just acted calm and spoke as if i understood her situation.She did'nt want to get tied down to one person.Well..She said it with no regrets.That was the shocking part of it.Well..The decision was all up to her.What else can I do..I cant possibly force her to change her mind.I may want to be in a relationship with her but I'm not desperate.So after we hung up I stared outside my window.It was a cold night.I stared into the night and talked to myself for almost half an hour.I did'nt even realise that I was crying.When I realised I just followed through and kept on crying.I just wanted to die right there and than.I thought to myself,"I wish I was blind so that I won't have to see your face because it will make me cry and I wish I was deaf too because when I hear your sweet voice,it will bring me down."
That's how I felt..The word is suicidal..But what did you expect?Oh well...We'll see wether your dream comes true.I hope it does'nt..
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