DropDeadSuicide
Tuesday, July 21, 2009, 5:24 PM
My hair is getting longer^^
I feel soo relieved. .
I've let it all out. .Well. .Almost everything.
I just wanna know what mummy,my elder sisters and my brothers think of me ..
You guys are probally looking down on me. .
It's not my fault the feeling ran away. .
If you guys can imagine,I prayed to god almost everyday when I arrived here to tell me what I should do. .
After a week I finale knew what had to be done. .
It was a way that will make sure that no one would get hurt. .
Besides,you were only faking your feelings.When we chat,I did'nt feel the love at all.
You were treating me as if I was your close friend.Don't deny it and try to cover it with your lies and make me look bad. .
I am an honest guy when it come to relationships.
I had my fair share of the shitty parts of a relationship back before I knew you.
So I can tell when someone is faking their feelings now. .Don't take me for a fool. .
It'd be the last thing that you'd want to do. .
I told you how I felt and how it would help us not to rush things and stuff.I said that it would be best if we were friends.You agreed and look what happened?You went back on your words.You freaking liar!You lied at the airport when I was about to leave because you probally felt sad that there was no one to accompany you through the nights.You lied because you pity me and you lied because you wanted me to feel 'happy'.Well let me tell you now. .
I'm happier now and I'm better off without you.
If anyone of my orgasm family is reading this,now you know how I feel.The pain of finale figuring out why she said the she 'loved' me.Well,it was a hoax. .A lie. .A big fat lie. .Not as big as the lie that cheap slut told me.But hey,both were lying when they said they loved me.
I did love you dammit,its just that the love I felt was'nt strong enough to withstand my long stay here. .Well. .That's about it for that part of this post. .Now onto my family.
GOD!I KNOW THAT I'VE BEEN SAYING THIS IN ALMOST EVERY POST SINCE I'VE BEEN HERE,BUT I MISS THEM SOO MUCH!I LOOOVE THEM SOO MUCH!I MISS HELPING MY SISTER WITH HER HOMEWORK1I MISS COOKING,MAKING A MESS IN THE KITCHEN THAN MUM WOULD SCOLD ME AND STUFF!I MISS HAVING THOSE RANDMO ONE TO ONE CONVERSATIONS WITH MY DAD!T.T
I WANNA GO HOME!
GAAAH!
BUT I HAVE TO STAY HERE TILL SEPTEMBER 13.
IDK HOW I CAN SURVIVE GUYS,IT'S SOO BORING HERE1
LIGHTS ALL OFF BEFORE 1AM,INTERNET MODEM IS OFF BY 2AM!
CAN'T EVEN WATCH TV TILL 4AM ANYMORE!IF NOT THAT GOOD FOR NOTHING PAK LONG COME OUT AND YELL AND SAY AWFUL THINGS.
HE CALLED ME A BINATANG!THAT SON OF A BITCH!I HATE HIM!WHEN HE'S GIVING HIS TALK ABOUT ISLAM,HE WOULD AIM AT THE SO CALLED 'BAD STUFF' THAT I DID!ENJOY2,TAK TIDO SAMPAI MALAM BUTA AND ETC. .WHY CAN'T HE TELL ME DIRECTLY!TAKDE KONEK KEPE SIAL!KEPALA BUTO!GERAM SIAL ABG. .SORRY FOR MY OFFENSIVE LANGUAGE MAMA AND PAPA,MAKE SURE HANNA DOES'NT READ TRHIS POST.I'M JUST SOO MAD!I SWEAR ONE DAY I'LL BASH HIS FACE TILL NO ONE CAN RECONIZE HIM!I KNOW ITS A SIN BUT WHO CARES!*YOU GUYS DO* I'M JUST SOO MAD AT HIM!
I KNOW WHAT I HUAVE TO DO FOR MY FUTURE MAMA,PAPA. .I'M GONNA WORK THIS YEAR,START SCHOOL NEXT YEAR AT ITE BB,TAKING THE FITNESS COURSE.I'M GONNA STICK THROUGH IT AND I AM GOING TO DO NS AFTERWARDS,I'M GONNA CONTINUE SCHOOLING AT SHAWTEC IF POSSIBLE,OTHERWISE I GO TO ITE CLEMENTI AND TAKE THE CULINARY COURSE THERE,MAYBE FROM THERE I CAN GO TO SHAWTEK. .I really wanna go to Shawtek and fullfill my dreams..I hope you guys read this.I wanna go home. .
This is my plan. .If it does'nt work. .I'll think of something,I alwas do c:
Oh yeah. .Get me out of here guys!
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